call me the repeater, for my agony is repetitive, and totally avoidable. i see the wall, i run into the wall. why even exclaim my pain at this point? is it mySelf that i feel... ReAwakening, within my cagebrain? deep deep held so inside and within my carapace of numb haze and saunter? monochromic tone of sine? to her, i am so sorry, i love you, you can do it, killme as soon as you can, as you Absolutely Must!!!