i am shining thru my own fog which contains me, ego shattering levels of droll death boredom surrounding me in sameness, my chemical blanket is keeping me contained here with it. i wish i wish upon my car, won't i drop this fentanyl starve? it nullifies the nullifier, takes from the one who was taking in the first place!! a zombie in her place! gah! it is repelling. boring. ugly in all the wrong ways. alas. pray that i sustain, for most have gone hollow by now, and i can feel the hollowing creeping in on me...